Learning to “BE”

This has been an interesting trip so far.

To be completely honest, it has not been anything like I imagined. I imagined a nice hiking trip with plenty of time alone with God in His beautiful creation. So far, that is what I've had, but, I was not expecting this journey to be so hard mentally and physically.

I have come to realize that time alone with the Lord can truly be a scary thing. The more quiet I am with Him, the more I hear His voice. Many times though, what He has to say is not what I want to hear.
    
On the trail, I have been dealing with a lot of thoughts and emotions from my past that I was certain I had already "dealt" with. Past relationships, past hurts–good memories as well–like my current relationship, childhood happenings,and food–yes thoughts of milkshakes, hamburgers, and even a nice salad flood my mind.

The more these "comforts" pop up in my mind, the more I realize how often I turn to these "comforts" in life instead of seeking the Lord. This is something I am working on changing.

The landscape and scenery have been breathtaking, but I realize with each new day that He didn't call me out to the wilderness to experience a good hike. He brought me out here to teach me more about Himself as well as myself. I have already learned a lot and have heard from Him concerning certain things I was seeking Him about.

This has been great, but, I realize my focus now more than ever is simply learning to "be" with Him in His beautiful presence. I don't know entirely what the Lord has in store for me on this crazy journey, but, no matter what, I know I simply get to "BE" with my PAPA…